Through My Eys: Anaheim 2
Ben Evans
Location: Anaheim, CA
Feb 01
|15:55
I think about Will Smith in The Pursuit of Happyness when I think about a man who stands for a commitment to be successful. In the movie, they spell happiness wrong, so don’t think it was me! Will’s character had so much desire to be successful that he went through unbelievable hardships like sleeping in a public bathroom with his son because he had no where else to stay. I’m sure his mind was telling him he was crazy. “Why am I doing this?” Is the pain and suffering really worth it?My results in racing for the past few months have not been that great. I became allergic to wheat during the end of outdoors last year, knocked myself out in Germany, split my chin wide open during the off season, and sprained my wrist testing with my new team. I’ve never been though some much junk in a short period of time. With my off season injuries I was off the bike for a month before Anaheim 1, and so far this year has been tough. I got a 17th and 18th the first two rounds with a team that believes I should at least be in the top ten. I crashed this last weekend at Anaheim 2 in my heat race right when things started coming back around. I injured my right shoulder, and I am sitting this weekend out for San Francisco to heal up.
I plan on coming back for San Diego though! I know living a big life causes you to face big problems. Living with big goals and big expectations can cause for some let downs when you don’t reach them. It’s ok to feel disappointment because it shows you care about what you are doing, but you don’t want that to cause you to quit. It’s easy to call good opportunities a sign from God to escape your present difficulty. “How you end one period of your life is how you start the next.” It’s always good to end a period of your life full of faith and not running with fear.
The truth about a current circumstance is that usually you are one moment away from them changing what has happened. I can sit here and dwell on my lack of success in my racing recently, but the truth is that I am potentially one race away from flipping my results around. I’m so close to actually making it big as a supercross racer, but I feel so far away. It’s like I can’t quite reach it, but that is only the emotions talking. I race supercross because God wants me to race supercross. This is the conclusion I have reached about my racing because it’s the true reason why I ride. Sometimes racing will or will not be fun. Sometimes riding will be awesome though, and I will certainly enjoy it for what it is in those moments.
I want to trust God to direct my life and not waver to my circumstances. Jeremiah 29:11 says, For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Deuteronomy 31:8 says, Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord is the one who goes before you. He will be with you ; he will neither fail you nor forsake you. Philippians 4:12-14 says, I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me strength I need. These verses have really encouraged me. So no matter what the results are in my life whether good or bad, I can be satisfied in Christ. I want to ride like a true champion in the face of any problem even when the world sees it as unreasonable. I know this attitude and faith only comes from God! I hope you can make that choice to let God take control of your circumstances because is above all things.
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